Yes, you read that right, I am a 22-year-old virgin. By everything I mean I’ve never had sex (the obvious one), I’ve never been in a relationship, never been kissed, and I have never been on a date.
You may find that surprising, and honestly it is starting to bother me that I have literally no experience. I can’t be the only one, right?
I’ll admit, I am an extremely shy person. I get anxiety when I talk to boys.
I had an interesting group of friends in high school, and two best friends, but boys weren’t really the topic of discussion when we got together, which now I realize why we didn’t talk about it.
Right now, as a 22-year-old, I don’t have many opportunities to go out with friends as I would like. My high school friends stopped talking to me in college (no idea why), and I didn’t have the best of luck making close friends in college. So, I have no one.
You’re probably thinking that I should join a dating app because that’s the new way to meet people nowadays, but I’d like to call myself old-fashioned.
I want to meet a guy when I’m out and about in person, but as I said before I have very little opportunities to do the things I want.
I also feel like talking to someone over the internet will just give me more anxiety. It may also be because I have no idea how to flirt, LOL.
On most days I feel happy and completely fine, but on some days I do get sad about this.
What is funny to me though, is the day after I’m sad, I don’t do anything about it. I’m still terrified of putting myself out there.
Honestly, I have no idea when I will finally be ready to meet people and not have anxiety about it.
All I can do is keep going to try to find my purpose in life, and everything will fall into place.
The Story of My Life 